There is a Travis Greene song that I believe illd forever love for its lyrics. It goes ……… “ All things are working for my good, cos He is intentional and never failing”
The tune of this song and the words are super catchy, but asides all of this, I have truly come to realize the full meaning of God’s intentionality.
There have been times in my life when I felt I wasn’t priority to God, or that He had left me temporarily to tend to other important matters. For instance, some years back, I was going through hell at my workplace. I was the in-house doctor at a government institution for children with special needs. For sake of context, I was absolutely miserable and frustrated! No, it wasn’t really because of the kids, but more of the work environment and political rigmarole.
Nothing was normal at that place! The stress of coping with the challenges of the organization and some “callous” coworkers really got to me. I remember a day I walked out of the building with no destination in mind, overly dejected, and weeping profusely. That day, I could have easily had a road mishap. I walked on the streets with no care for the vehicles passing by or my safety, but I thank God for His mercies and protection.
As I walked aimlessly around, a phone call came through, it was my husband. He said he somehow had the inclination to check on me at work and immediately He got through to me, he realized there was trouble! I was crying profusely and far from coherent.
He tried to calm me down and cajole me into returning to the building to clear my head. Then he placed a call to my mum, who in turn placed a call to the driver they had hired on my behalf to take me home. I left without informing anyone and it was well into working hours. Of course the next day I got to work, I had some unofficial queries to answer but this time I was clear headed.
I absolutely wanted to take my exit from that work place, by every means possible. But I still needed a job to keep afloat with finances. A transfer seemed like my best option. I would cry and cry, then pray and pray for God to work a miraculous transfer for me to another ministry in the same government organization.
But guess what? That transfer wasn’t forth coming. Infact, day by day it seemed even more impossible. The moment I was to begin possible runs for the proposed transfer, Covid happened! There was a lock down and everything was far from normal that year.
At this time, I was on maternity leave for my first child and I was hoping I could work the transfer before the leave was over. My plan was to resume into a new work place after my maternity leave, but my wishes were null and void! I painfully resumed back to that depressing environment after my maternity leave and things had gotten even worse, thanks to Covid. Then, it erroneously became a notion to me that God wasn’t listening and that He couldn’t care less. Unknown to me, He had bigger and grander plans.
You see, God doesn’t do things shabbily, He doesn’t accept settling for less when it comes to His children. I have learnt over my years of waiting, that delay is far from denial. Sometimes that delay is necessary to build your character for the blessings He is bringing your way. Likewise, a ‘No’ or silence doesn’t equate to being ignored, sometimes it is necessary to keep your faith waxing stronger.
Brethren! The waiting season is difficult let’s not even mince words but God’s plan is always worth the wait. One of my mother’s favorite Bible verses is one from Hebrew 6:14/15 which goes
“Surely, blessings I would bless you, and multiplying I would multiply you, this promise you shall recieve after you have patiently endured.”
After my presumed silence from God, I got a revelation from someone close to me. Please guys, if you previously never knew, God speaks to His children in different ways; through His words/scriptures, through dreams and the Holy Spirit. We just have to be still to come to a place of discernment and hear what He is saying to us!
So about this revelation, it had come in the form of a dream and honestly at the time, the dream made no sense to me. Yes, it indicated that God was about to take me out of the place I had fervently prayed to leave but not in the way that I expected. Infact the proposed plan wasn’t clear enough and seemed ridiculous. Nothing in my life at that time indicated the destination He was leading me to.
Fast forward to 2 years after the revelation, unplanned events started to materialize. It all started to come together and the dream was clearer, it made perfect sense! My God is a master planner!!!!!
Look at me now, after 5 long years of waiting, I have become a proud blogger/content creator with a website, living in the fulfillment of God’s promises for my life. I never would have thought in a million years that as a medical doctor, I would follow this path. But now that I look back, I marvel at God’s intentionality. If I were to go into details about my current family life and situation, you would definitely see how this particular career switch has been more than a blessing for me. I know that as life progresses, there would be other challenges, but with God by my side I would be just fine. If there is anything this experience has taught me it would be a comprehensive lesson on patience and resilience in the midst of hostility.
So, when next you feel like God might have forsaken you, please shake the feeling off darling! Know that He is working everything out for you in the background. Hold on to your Faith in Him, because He is intentional and He definitely never fails.
